Category: Musings
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Bless God | Brooke Ligertwood Cover
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This reflection comes before recording a cover of “God Bless ” by Brooke Ligertwood, because the lyrics still hold true for me. They name a trust in God that’s been shaped by experience—less polished, more honest, and deeply lived. Now, if I sit in church during worship—if Alex and I choose to go,…
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Holy in the Hard
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I brought my kids to the ranch where I grew up, something I hadn’t done in eight years. The last time I was here, Harmony was only 18 months old. I wasn’t planning to stop or engage with my adoptive parents—I was just going to do a quick drive-by to…
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Some Roads Don’t Take You Back
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Some roads don’t take you back; they carry you forward.Still, I needed to walk this one more time.There’s healing in returning, especially when grace walks beside you. The moment we landed in Montana, something shifted in me. I couldn’t quite name it, but the weight of it settled in fast.…
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No Easy Answers: What Adoption Can’t Always Fix
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There are moments when I think about adoption and wonder if it would be better to halt it entirely—at least until we get it right. I know that may sound extreme, but it comes from a place of pain and deep reflection—a reflection shaped by the many layered, often conflicting…
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When Adoption Becomes Exploitation
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When I came across Second Chance Adoptions’ new Facebook page, I couldn’t shake the feeling in my gut. They were asking for help spreading the word, and I kept wondering—why was the old page gone? I’m not privy to the information as to why it disappeared, and I don’t know…
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When the Table Was Never Meant for You
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At school pickup today, my daughter was in tears. One of her usual recess friends had suddenly started ignoring her, choosing a new friend group instead. My mama heart ached as I listened to her confusion and hurt. And honestly? I get it. Even at 31, I still find myself…
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What Love Really Means- JJ Heller Cover
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The song What Love Really Means by JJ Heller was one I deeply related to growing up. It was always on repeat, and when I finally picked up a guitar, I learned to play it—not well, mind you, but just enough to stumble through. Do you resonate with the little boy sitting…
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When Divorce and Faith Collide
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In a home where fundamentalist beliefs shape every aspect of your life, marriage is seen as sacred and unbreakable. Divorce wasn’t just frowned upon; it was treated as an unforgivable sin, branding anyone who chose it with a mark of shame. It wasn’t just a personal failure—it was a community-wide…
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Silencing the Survivor: Breaking Down Tactics of Control and Invalidation
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When individuals share their personal experiences, especially those marked by trauma, they often encounter responses that subtly—or sometimes overtly—attempt to reshape or soften their narratives. About a month ago, I wrote about reclaiming my voice after realizing I endured years of Munchausen by Proxy abuse—a form of mistreatment where a…